Okay so I think I’ve discovered that when Iget drunk I get really sensitive. I mean more so that I already am.
I’m sitting here thinking that I hope our waitress doesn’t hate us. ANd that I hope I don’t seem too obnoxious. I don’t want to be the obnozious drunk girl! Also I hope you don’t all hate me when like 10 posts come thru in my RSS and they all have “drunkblog” in the title.
And sometimes I wish I used Wordpress. But not really..
Now it might get racy… already on Rusty’s blog we’re talkijng about what he thinks about when he jerks off. I don’t like the way he write all his updates in 1 post, but whatever, it’s his prerogative.
So now I’m sipping my vodka and redbull. Rusty diluted it so the vodka doesn’t fucking kill me.
And I hope I don’t spill anything on my laptop. Even though it’s almost 3 years old and slow as shit, I still love it and don’t want anything to happen to it.
So one other thing before ranting… and since I said it might get racy. The other day we made homemade porn. And I think we need to make more of it. But one thing I didn’t really expect was it was really hard for me to wartch myself comming… so that’s why I think we need to make more of it, so I can be comfortable w/ it. But I’ve had sex in front of other people and it’s been TOTALLY FINE and felt perfectly normal and good and right. It’s just the watching myself thing. Even tho I am totally comfortable with DOING it, what I discovered was I don’t look the way I feel, and that makes me feel weird and uncomfortable and uneasy and vulnerable. Rusty says it’s hot and I wish I could believe him. I’m trying.. so that’s another goal for 2007, I’ve decided.
And now my mom totally HATES that she reads this blog!! (I know she reads it. Even if she says she doesn’t. But you know what, I am an ADULT and I can do what I want! She should understand that by now! I’m 27 years old, dammit.)
Sara said if you pee clear it means you’r drunk. I don’t know about that.
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3 Responses to "Drunkblog update #4"
Um, have you written before about having sex in front of people?
Link, please?
Pretty please?
:D
No I haven’t… not on this blog. Sometimes I hate that I have certain inhibitions and self-censor here in some ways. I wish, wish, wish I could be MORE free and open. But I feel like certain restrictions come w/ the fact that I blog under my real name. *sigh*… it’s a pain in my ass sometimes. But I can’t imagine blogging anonymously or pseudonymousely for any extended period of time, either.
Yeah, I can’t either. **grumble**
:)