Yesterday on Twitter I said, “I wish I could pole dance EVERY night.”
Lately I’ve been feeling strange, kind of down in the dumps, and I can’t really put my finger on what it is. I just feel like something isn’t right, and I want to get to the bottom of it. I feel this way more in the mornings; maybe my serotonin level is lower in the morning? I don’t know.
But I do know that I feel happy, alive, and on top of the world when I’m pole dancing. I wish I could do it even more than I already do.
Last night we started the fourth installation of Level 5/6, the “master” pole level, which will continue indefinitely, because they can’t get rid of us pole addicts! They’re also going to start offering Cardio Pole classes (thirty minutes of nothing but pole circuits, for Level 3 and above) every Wednesday at 6:30 during May and June, and I signed up for all eight of ‘em last night. I can go straight from work.
I have my pole at home and I practice on it as much as possible, but it’s challenging given the dimensions of the stage and such. I can’t wait until we buy a house/condo/whatever and can install a permanent pole.
I don’t really know where I’m going with this other than to just reiterate how much I love pole dancing. Few things make me happier. I’m still kind of in awe of the fact that I found an athletic activity that I enjoy so much.
Sunday night’s student/instructor showcase was a massive success, btw. Angela said they’ve been receiving tons of emails asking when the next show is. She said they’re probably going to do these shows once a quarter. I kind of feel like I shouldn’t try to be in every show because other people might want a chance, but on the other hand, I just really love performing. I think Sunday night was one of my best performances ever. I told Rusty not to record me, which, I think, is actually part of why I did so well - I didn’t feel pressured. But then I wished he had recorded me, because I did so well. So next time maybe he should just secretly record me, whether I ask him to or not!
There was a brief instance of inappropriate/unwanted touching after the show, which just exemplifies (yet again) the problems Jenny talked about in her “Sex, Guys, and Videotape” post. Hello - it is NOT OKAY to put your arm around me, dude I’ve never met. I don’t care if I’m in my underwear. I don’t care if I’ve been dancing half-naked. I don’t care if you’re congratulating me on a good performance. ‘Cause really all of it has fuck all to do with you, so GO AWAY.
But let’s not end this somewhat stream-of-consciousness post on a negative note! Sunday night was great, and I just wish I could carry the feeling I have when I’m pole dancing with me all the time. Oh, and I need to write a separate post about Angela’s half-joking idea about starting Atlanta’s first clothed strip club.
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3 Responses to "Every day"
That’s awesome that you’ve found something you enjoy so much (and provides great exercise!).
My therapist told me to find something I love, and do it every day even when I didn’t feel like it. It sounds like you’ve found something you love.
“Hello - it is NOT OKAY to put your arm around me, dude I’ve never met. I don’t care if I’m in my underwear. I don’t care if I’ve been dancing half-naked.”
Yeah, those read more like reasons not to then any sort of excuse he should make that he should! Sorry that you got creeped out but congrats on the awesome showcase.
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