Once again…

…tonight, I’m having that thought, of what would happen if I really truly stopped apologizing for who I am, for taking up space, for having feelings, for having quirks, for being me? If I stopped cloaking my vulnerability in sarcastic self-deprecating asides about “navel-gazing” and being “emo?”

What would that be like?

Every few months/years/whatever I have this moment of, good lord, that would be REALLY different, maybe I should try it! And I’ve been steadily moving toward it for years, but let me tell you, it’s REALLY fucking hard. This isn’t just psychobabble, people.

What would happen if I really did enact that personal revolution?

Jun 13 2009 11:57 pm | Category: Blog | Tags: , , , , | 4 Comments »

4 Responses to “Once again…”

  1. 14 Jun 2009 at 5:56 am   Niki

    I lurveeeee you!

  2. 14 Jun 2009 at 5:57 pm   Gaina

    Well, you’d probably feel an acute drop in atmospheric pressure, probably followed by a cold front of deserters who liked the old ‘apologist you’ because it made them feel better but then you’d be subjected to frequent sunny spells as a warm front of positive people moved in rapidly from the west.

    Well, that’s what happened when I tried it anyway :P.

  3. 14 Jun 2009 at 6:17 pm   Amber

    I like that theory!

  4. 16 Jun 2009 at 3:43 pm   DaisyDeadhead

    Why do you feel you must apologize for who you are?

    Concentrate on the question, accompanied by about 100 mcg of lysergic acid, and you will figure out the answer, and never do it again.

    Really. :)

    (Okay, I tend to think LSD solves everything, but its way cheaper than psychoanalysis and the visuals are much better.)